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Will I ever go back to a “real” job?
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Not quitting… But damn it if there aren’t days I want to.
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Now Accepting Clients

Will I ever go back to a “real” job?

In Arkansas, it takes effort for companies to find and retain great talent. No person is perfect and so few enough here are actually qualified, that it makes some employers bet on someone who is not and will not be ready for them OR they are all grasping at the same talent who hop every 3-5 years from place to place.

The state of the talent pool in Arkansas and the large number of opportunities have always made me feel that, if for some reason, running Idestini Dev Studio just wasn’t panning out, I could step back into something rewarding very quickly. There has only been one time in the last 2.75 years that I’ve actually wanted to quit. That feeling came from disappointment about a client going a new direction and me not having seen it coming and feeling like I was missing out on an awesome opportunity to grow my business alongside their successes. Plus, I truly like the client personally.

After that happened and about a month of having no substantial projects, I was about ready to call it quits. I set a deadline and everything. I was pretty in the dumps for that first 3 weeks.

But you know what?

The roller coaster always goes up again.

A couple weeks of pain were followed by the best months ever and sales are already up 35% from last year. It’s only the first of September. It’s been an amazing year.

I love being able to step in and help a company with an immediate need for a tech solution, with something they haven’t been able to get done internally, with creating their MVP product, with improving their websites, with saving a failing project, or with whatever that problem it is that I can solve with web technologies. I never planned this business venture for myself, but it turns out I am actually good at solving problems for people and getting the job done – reliably, professionally, and ethically.

Will I ever take a job in the corporate world again? Probably. All things change in time. And only God knows where that change will lead me. For now, I will trust that God will continue to bring me clients, at His perfect timing. And, when it’s time to change, I’ll know.

P.S. If you need someone to come alongside you and help automate your business processes, improve sales online, increase leads, or fix a failed software project, look us up at http://idestini.com.

Not quitting… But damn it if there aren’t days I want to.

Yes, there are plenty of days that I want to quit. Days that I think I could go back to some relatively reliable job, with benefts, and a sure salary. That a job is reliable or sure is a falsehood we tell ourselves. In practice, not many of us are laid off or part of companies that shut down, but it happens.

Being a solo agency owner and working from home can be lonely. Sure, I have various friends and contractors that weave in and out of working for me and a virtual assistant that saves my sanity. They are great people but we’re all focused and efficient people. There are days I miss water cooler talk. I miss what I now know to be low expecations of corporate America. I miss pissing away 30 minutes on something completely and utterly unimportant at work and not being stressed or feel guilty that I have things that I really should have been doing. I miss having vacation days that everyone understands are mine to take. I can only co-work so much before it’s too much distraction.

Being a solo female agency owner, in the south, in a metropolitan area comprised by mostly men doing what I do, feels even more lonely. Lady agency entrepreneurs of Little Rock and Central Arkansas, hit me up and let’s have lunches and dinners and mastermind groups and get our kids together and be friends. I promise, I’m available. Let’s start a good ol’ girls’ clubs and build each other up. The boys can play too, sometimes.

What is it that makes it appear that men can approach business ownership much more confidently? That they can assume office spaces with leases I can only imagine the burden of. What are they trading for the wordly appearance of success? Is it that they have spouses that encourage and support them? I love my spouse, but we struggle when it comes to whose career is more important or if I need to work late or go to professional meetings. How do men business owners juggle a working spouse and kids and property without putting all of those things in a clearly inferior priority position?

There are days I get down on myself about being purposefully small. I’m not disappointed in myself but I am not satisfied yet. I often feel like I am waiting. Waiting for that next vote of confidence from a client. Waiting to know that my spouse is be proud and my champion, even when needing to be away from home is inconvenient. Waiting for answers from God about that next stage of growth. Waiting for all of it to get easier.

Yes, I am looking for the pity party tonight but it is just tonight. I am certain I am where I should be. I am grateful for the flexibility I have. I am grateful for the honest and rewarding work that clients have granted me. I am grateful for the referrals of peers. I am constantly amazed at the esteem that some people ascribe to me. It often is such a wonderment to me. I am so much just a human and a complete mess and a lonely person, aiming to be loved. I like to believe we all are like me deep inside and that helps me keep getting up in the morning, putting one foot in front of the other.

I’m kind of on vacation next week, so that’s good.

Also, I will start posting more here. No idea what that looks like yet but this girl has got to let it out somewhere.

Now Accepting Clients

A while back, I decided I was ready to once again make the leap to accept contracts for web design work. I’ve decided to turn this into an at least part-time business.

As such, I’m happy to announce that I’ve created a new www.idestini.com to advertise my efforts. If you know a small business or organization looking for a new site or some updates to their existing site (especially from the Little Rock area), please forward them on over.

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